Wednesday, September 28, 2005

The Lesser of Two Evils

I may not always be the brightest bulb on the strip, but eventually I come around. Yesterday, I came to one of those conclusions that is probably right, but I'm not sure of the usefulness. Here it goes:

It's much easier to do something you do not want to do, then to not do something you want to do.

When faced with an unpleasant situation, or let's say an uncomfortable situation, it just takes courage to jump in, hold your breath and do it. You pretty much just cut loose and let it happen. Your expectation is that it is horrible anyway, so "let's just get it over with"! Even when overcoming enormous fears and anxiety, once you start...You suffer through it and you're done. You can return to your fears and anxiety for the next time, but that challenge is over.

What about not doing something you want to do. Is restraint as easy as courage? I don't think so. There is no conclusion to restraint, until you let it go. Ask an alcoholic. Does the desire ever go away? Is failure just one act away? Can you resist for a lifetime the inner urges for that one thing, that one act, that something you want so badly? Can you hold forever?

There's no rushing in to conquer the fear once and for all. No let loose, come what may. If you do that, you will do the thing you must not. It might be a ethics issue, a religious issue, a commitment issue, a moral issue. It doesn't matter. For what ever reason there is a boundary that you must not cross and for whatever reason, you want to cross it. The victory is never won, but on a day to day, temptation to temptation basis.

Unless you have a higher purpose or an ultimate goal. You will not stand. You will not succeed.

The victory is within. Only you get to experience it. Only you get to raise your arm in victory, knowing you just won a battle, but you can loose the war at anytime.

Courage is easy, restraint is the ultimate test. Do you have it?

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